Today is day 50 - half way through the 'critical' first hundred days and so far everything seems hunky dory. 
 
I'm gradually reducing my daily dose of steroids and have not yet had any sign of GVHD. Of course while this is nice, in the long term a little GVHD would actually be a good thing because of the Graft Vs Leukaemia effect. 
 
Like many things at the moment - there seems to be no clear answer available - I just have to wait and see.  Deal with the things I can deal with, accept the things that are beyond my control, and look for the wisdom to know the difference. And where does that advice come from? I'm sure I knew once.
 
That's the health side of things. But the rest of the physical side is less pleasing.  I've never been a fitness fanatic. Organised exercise has never appealed to me - I think the last time I used a gym was probably while I was at school... But I have always kept reasonably healthy - I swim (or swam...), walk, cycle, take the stairs, play on the beach, etc and that's worked for me. My body has always responded when I've needed it and done what I've asked.

Since coming out of hospital I've been weak.  Squat in front of the fridge - and I need a conscious effort to stand and balance when I want to get up.  Stand up too fast and I get that little low blood pressure dizzy moment. Carry a 4 litre bottle of water up two floors and I need to pause for breath at the top...  Being this way just doesn't feel like me.
 
So today I built a pile of rocks.
 
I went for a walk to the rocky end of the beach, sat down, and tossed a rock. Then another. And another. And so on. Then I started bending down and moving the bigger ones and clearing a space which I grew into a path.  By the time I left I had a pile about two metres square with a mostly cleared path around (or asquare) it.  I wasn't silly, I didn't strain myself, didn't move anything much bigger than my head. But I shifted a lot of rocks, pebbles, stones and frustration. I may be weak, and I may tire easily, but I don't have to be a lump.  I can exercise my body and I can and will grow stronger.  
 
I'll see how I feel tomorrow too. If I'm stiff or really tired I'll rest. But if not, I'm going back to shift more rocks.